Monday, May 12, 2014
I really enjoyed the workshop. I had been a little nervous about how it would go but all the pieces just came together on their own.
I am basically a realistic painter. I've had success in painting abstract backgrounds and really enjoy creating them. I have also taken workshops with artists and tryed to "loosen up" but I've only had limited sucesses.
Usually when I try and paint loosely I come out with a painting that looks "sloppy".
2013 was a very bad year for my family and it took an emotional toll on me. I have been still processing the grief of the losses. I have been struggling with my painting and I feel like it hasn't been able to develop the way it should. I keep trying to do new things, try new styles, painting different things and they have all left me frustrated. But in Suzanna's workshop I felt that I came alive a little bit and felt the muse inside me inspiring me to paint. I need to learn how to paint the way I'm inclined to paint and not the way I think I should paint. I need to loosen up mentally rather than dwelling on painting more loosely. Then I can find the freedom to express myself more fully.
I feel that I have been taking tiny steps on my journey and that I'm on the verge of taking great strides that will hopefully get me closer to my goals. And then I will have new goals that I will continue to strive to reach!